Monday, July 4, 2011
make memories last..
As life goes on i start to realize what I have been given. Not many people have been to Boston, Oregon, Wyoming, Colorado, and many other places before the age of 15. I have been able to do that because of my parents. Although they are separated and they say things won't change, I know they will. I experienced a change today. This year was the first year i have spent the 4th of July without my mom and dad together. It was actually quite hard to come to my senses when i realized that this was actually happening. I had no idea that 2010 would be the last year my family spent christmas together as a whole. If i had known that I probably would have soaked in all of the good memories my family has had. Like getting lost on the ski slopes calling for my mom and dad to come help me. Or my parents teaching me how to ride a bike. And even just the little things like having family dinners. But what i will miss most of all is knowing that my parents will never love each other again. I always looked at families that have been torn apart by divorces and I think to myself wow, that must be really hard for them. And I never actually realized how hard it really was. Not the schedule part but the fact that I won't be able to see my mom and dad everyday when I wake up in the morning. I pray every night that things will get better but it seems that things only get worse. My parents are moving on and soon there will probably be another person in my mom/dad's life. I want them to be happy but is it selfish of me to wish they wouldn't meet anyone?
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Peyton, always remember that your Mom and Dad love you and that will never change. While they don't live in the same house, together, you and Keely are the common thread between them. They will always do what's right for you. I wouldn't be surprised if, in the future, you will spend some time all together on important holidays like Christmas. I'm sure you want them to be happy just like they want you to be happy. I remember one year when my kids were younger than you, Poppie had to be away on Thanksgiving because his boss, in NY, died. I decided I would try to make a good Thanksgiving, anyway, and I made reservations at a really fancy restaurant. Well!! They were NOT happy about that. I felt bad, but there wasn't anything I could about it. Then, a friend of your Dad's family, called and asked if we wanted to eat Thanksgiving Dinner with them---at Morrison's Cafeteria of all places!!! Well, we did--a big change, but what counted was that even though we missed Poppie we had dinner with people we loved and had a great time.
ReplyDeleteSometimes grown people find more happiness with each other when they DON'T live together. Yes, they will move on, but they will both move on with you in their lives. Just as you make new friends, they will, too. I know this is a difficult time for you, but I suspect you will begin to understand that your Mom and Dad do everything for your sake--even live apart. You will never lose the memories of the happy times you had when you lived together, but you will make new memories that will be just as precious to you in the future.
Always remember, you are loved by so many people.